For most of my blogging “career” I’ve been hiding behind a curtain.
Never told anyone I was close with about it.
It was my place to vent- to bitch about everything: my family, my fucked up childhood, my infertility – my world.
The way I see things.
And I hid.
I hid because I can’t tell people things to their faces.
I can’t tell things to my own face as well.
The truth sucks sometimes and blogging has been my therapy for so many years now.
But recently I became a contributing writer for Curvy Girl Guide- an online women’s magazine which I love.
It’s all about loving yourself- empowering yourself and who you are.
And I write.
And my full name is on the site.
And it freaked me out at first.
I never set out to have a name that could be googled.
And traced back.
But here I am, exposed.
And so I linked to a post I wrote on Facebook.
I jumped head first into freezing cold water.
And I’ve received such positive responses from people.. people who I know.
before I started writing for CGG I was thinking of finishing up this blog.
I have been struggling for a while to share.
I’m becoming less and less vocal.
I have struggles.
Just like everyone else.
And I feel like for come reason, I can no longer write about them here.
My secret place is no longer so secret.
It makes me resent it all.
So my new years resolution is this: return to the place when blogging was my diary.
So what if I’m exposed? I need to be real to myself.
What are your resolutions?
- In Advaita Vedanta philosophy, Maya is the limited, purely physical and mental reality in which our everyday consciousness has become entangled. Maya is held to be an illusion, a veiling of the true, unitary Self — the Cosmic Spirit also known as Brahman. -
