Gemini Girl

Work:

I have yet to post about my new position and everything else going on in my work life.

So after my boss was let go they didn’t know what to do with me. I was her executive assistant and therefore if there is no executive- where does that leave me?
HR kept me on hand and said they were “working on things”.

What was being worked on was:

The new EVP (who was the SVP) wanted to get rid of his assistant. They always had problems and she would constantly complain about him to everyone. There was a total lack of communication, and she took on way more than she needed to be doing. This led to her ultimate downfall.

They were looking to let her go, and they did. I was not here that day, and I wasn’t even sure if they were going to do it. But they did, and they offered me the position. I felt horrible. I liked her and she was older than me- older than my mother! She had been with the company for 15 years!

But if I didn’t take the job, someone else would have and I have two mouths to feed! What could I do?

The job that I *really really* want is only going to become available sometime in 2009, so until then I will be here.

My manager is a good guy, and I’m pretty confident around him. He has complete faith in me which is a great thing (he had none in his former assistant). I always felt nervous around my old boss. She was a powerful woman, and I think women judge other women more harshly.

I don’t want to be an assistant for the rest of my life. This is not my end all be all. I hate myself for being 27 and not have risen to a higher level at work, but my life took different turns. I know I am where I am supposed to be.

I confided in my old boss (spoke to her last week) about the way I feel and she implored me to take the new position when it is offered. She said I will learn a lot and that any company will take me in a heartbeat once I have worked there. Although it will be another assistant position, it is in the field that I am dying to get into and you actually learn a thing or two in the position. There is somewhere to grow. So I am feeling confident- especially since the woman who I would be working for really likes me and pretty much promised me the job once it becomes available. So we’ll see. Too early to get my hopes up.

Life:
On a different note, I started Jen*ny Crai*g on Monday. A co-worker of mine gave birth to her son a month before my girls were born and she has lost a TON of weight on it. She is even thinner now than she was prior to pregnancy!
So when another co-worker said that she was starting, it inspired me. I got my tush to the center and now I am successfully on Day 4. I have no problem with self control- I hardly eat (which is my problem). It’s losing these last 30 pounds that’s killing me! I am not comfortable in my own skin. I miss my old wardrobe, and my old self-confidence. I am hoping that this will push start my weight loss.